Five months after her mother Naomi Judd’s death, Wynonna Judd says she’s finally ready to start talking about the loss she and the rest of their family have been through and how music is helping her get through it all.
Judd sat down for her first interview since her mother’s suicide in April, speaking with CBS Sunday Morning about her grief and decision to go back on tour despite it. The country singer shared that the day before she and Naomi — who were best known as The Judds, one of the most successful country duos in history — were going to be inducted into the Country Music Hall of Fame, “I got the call, and I went over, and I saw her and that was that. I said goodbye to her in the hospital, and I closed her eyes, and I kissed her forehead and that was that. And the next thing I know, I’m sitting here on the front porch…and I’m just trying to figure out what’s next.” She added, “I did not know that she was at the place she was at ela when she ended it because she had had episodes before and she got better. And that’s what I live in, is like, ‘Was there anything I should have looked for or should I have known?’ I didn’t. That’s why it’s such a shock.” And despite her passing her, Judd says she still “feel[s] her nudging me. And sometimes, I laugh. And sometimes, I say, ‘I really miss you. Why aren’t you here so we can argue?’”
The singer also spoke to people this week about her decision to go forward with the final tour they had planned together as The Judds. “This is my opportunity to step into a situation that I don’t know that I am ready to do what I’m about to do, but I think it’s going to heal me,” she explained to the outlet. “I’m teaching what I want to learn, which is how to have peace and joy in a really negative [space]. I want people to know that they’re loved. I want people to know that there is hope.”
Judd also shared how she’s been coping with the loss over the last several months, saying, “I’ll tell you what I know about death. In death, there is life. I feel both at the same time simultaneously. I feel joy and sorrow. I’m walking in paradox. I’m literally a walking contradiction. I feel joy. I feel pain. I feel light. I feel dark.” She concluded, “How am I coping? It depends on the [situation]. I’m on the phone talking and all of a sudden I’ll just begin to weep. Then 10 minutes later, I’m making a dinner and I’m talking to my husband about our date night. Then my granddaughter comes and I cry some more. I cry a lot. That’s okay…It doesn’t mean it’s a sign of weakness.”